still learning
after time spent
with the implication
of your stupidity
it becomes ingrained
that despite certification
you're basically dumb
always wrong
never right
about anything
at all
ever
now attempts to help
feel like put-downs
belittlements
and I'm back in that place
feeling stupid and small
yet your patience
with grumpiness
your kindly persistence
'til I finally accept
that your help is well-meant
and I learn
so much more
than this flash compensation
I learn that you
seek to build up
not to crush
and I learn
just to trust
in the warmth of your love
enough
not good enough
not fun enough
not good enough
not brave enough
not good enough
not sexy enough
not good enough
too shy
too blue
too much
too many
it rants and rants
around my brain
you ask am I ok
and my answer
only tears
no words
illogical
irrational
and oh so tired
so very tired
why must I
spin in circles
when my gravity
is here?
asleep
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so tired again
falling asleep on my feet
dreaming of duvet
Precious
my precious…
not in a creepy
gollum-style
but tender
soft and loving
my precious…
I will wrap you
gently in my arms
rock you, sooth you
calm your soul
my precious…
I will stand up
and defend you
tooth and nail
protect you from all hurt
for you are my precious
and my heart is yours
Lucky
there are times
when it
rushes at me
and all I can do is grin
shake my head
pinch myself
and kiss you
and kiss you
and kiss you
my mind is blown
we're here
together
like it's been
forever
but this time
last year
I was scared and
so lonely
thinking
I could never
be happy again
my brain melts
my foolish smile
makes me look daft
I don't care
I feel like
the luckiest
woman alive
dip
the dip in the road
approaches
I feel it
and I fear it
all these days
I was strong
now so weary
can I fight it?
with intent
you speak the words
with intent
words heard before
but sounding different
from you
not just
'I love you'
but
'I love you'
with intent
and I see your love
all around
in your actions
in your deeds
evidence of love
with intent
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Suzy Shipman
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I'm Suzy Shipman, AKA Suzy Blue or Blue Girl. I 'm a Web Person at Aberystwyth University. In my free time I write poems & take photos
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