gloom

the gloom
has got me again
swallowing my worth
sucking out my confidence
and I sink down slow
berating myself
for my weakness
as I go

today

heaviness
my head feels
too large
for my neck
eyes unfocused
staring at
nothing
silent
cotton wool head
achy ear
dreaming
of climbing
under duvet
and sleeping
for days
but knowing
I can’t
and I won’t
feeling
a draining
blanketing gloom
like a mist
hanging heavy
over the river
separated
from the world
it’s there
but obscured
all my thoughts
circle round you
and the fact
you’re not here
and the miss yous
echo round my empty head