should my heart be on display?

I wonder about
apologising
for such emotion
all strewn about

my heart is not so much
worn on my sleeve
but splattered here
for all to see

if I hold back
the poetry withers
a gag may hold me
for a short while
but it hurts to keep
my feelings locked up

this is not so much
a poem, more a question
to myself, and you