cough

at night it comes
steals sleep from me
and wracks my body’s
weary bones
and every cough
brings stabs of pain
in muscles strained
by repetition
’til here I sit
in break from work
head throbbing
back twinging
day-dreaming of my bed
and wishing
to float away
on peaceful clouds
and rest a while
regain my strength
and try again
tomorrow

today

heaviness
my head feels
too large
for my neck
eyes unfocused
staring at
nothing
silent
cotton wool head
achy ear
dreaming
of climbing
under duvet
and sleeping
for days
but knowing
I can’t
and I won’t
feeling
a draining
blanketing gloom
like a mist
hanging heavy
over the river
separated
from the world
it’s there
but obscured
all my thoughts
circle round you
and the fact
you’re not here
and the miss yous
echo round my empty head