pain

a constant shadow
at the edges of my days
in the corners of my nights
dark clouds lurk
in sunshine
colouring my life
in shades of grey

shut my mouth

twisted and torn
from trying to be brave
grin and bear it
don’t be a misery
others have it worse
but it hurts
the simple truth is this
it hurts
and I don’t know
where to go with this pain
how to expunge it
I spill emotions into words
let go the angst
feel free
but this
this endless aching
twinging fire
remains despite a novel
placed upon a page
and I’m still here
still torn
wanting to scream
complain and moan
but trying
trying oh so hard
to
shut
my
mouth