self-perception

this mirror-me
stares back impassively
skin more lined now
perhaps a hint of grey
amid the blonde
tired but happy
her strength shows
in a defiant smile
a lop-sided grin
not allowing
fears and worries
to swallow her up
and pull her down
scars still there
from hurts and mistakes
but now older, wiser
forgiven and accepted
a believer in herself
she holds my gaze
dares me
to change my
perception
of myself

fighting for spring

24-IMG_6822despite
winter’s
lingering grip
with frozen roots
and shivering stems
we haul ourselves
upright
to bloom
to open up
our delicate hearts
and show the world
that we are strong
we will not
lie down in the ice
and let it
trap us in its depths
we will not
cool our golden souls
but stand up tall
declare it spring

remember this …

when darkness falls
as thick as death
and all you see
is in your head

when ice surrounds
as cold as night
and all you feel
is frozen numb

when everything’s
impossible
and all you do
is just exist

remember this …

the light will come
hope will return
your heart will thaw
this will be won

your soul is strong
your mind is tough
you will emerge
transformed and bright

you’re not the dark
you’re not the ice
they are not you
be free, take flight


this isn’t everything you are
breathe deeply in the silence
no sudden moves
this isn’t everything you are
just take the hand that’s offered
and hold on tight
this isn’t everything you are
there’s joy not far from here
I know there is
this isn’t everything you are

Snow Patrol – This Isn’t Everything You Are

Mood Swing

Am I strong?
What was I saying?
Fuck, yeah! I’m strong!

I escaped from the crumbling ruins before
And stepped out into the unknown
I grabbed my chance with both my hands
And strode out strong and alone

It may be cold, but the sun is shining
It may be dark, but there are glimmers of light
It may be hard, but there’s a new day dawning
It’s just round the corner, not far out of sight

Soon I will be back to
Flying, laughing, singing, dancing,
Spinning, soaring, loving, flinging
Arms around the world
And shouting ..

I am here and I am strong and I am wild and I am free
and I am ME!